WEARY & DISCOURAGED

I'm very aware that this isn't a very uplifting title, but the truth is that I don't want this blog to be fluff. I want it to be real. I want people to be able to relate. I want this blog to be about the stuff we all deal with in the busy-ness of our lives. So, I won't try to reel you in and get you to read my blog because it is some feel-good, optimistic, sugar-coated paragraph....you get the point. So, I'll be honest when I say that these days I am feeling weary and discouraged.

There is really no reason why, exactly. I think because it is summer, and I'm out of my routine, I've been really busy with the girls, and my calendar is already chock full of plans and appointments and stuff to do. Of course I can't blame anyone for my busy-ness. I'm the one who scheduled the appointments and looks forward to getting together with friends. Also, I feel like no matter how hard I work at home, nothing seems to be accomplished. I could literally do laundry every single day and never get caught up. I could dust twice a week and it still isn't enough to deter the dust bunnies. I've got sticky spots on the wood floor, fingerprints on my windows and a ring forming in the toilet. When I think about all I have to do I just want to do NOTHING! So this is where the discouragement forms, I think, when I'm feeling overwhelmed. I just want to have a day to myself, to sit in the sun, to read my book all day and do whatever I want. I don't want to think about bills to be paid, laundry to wash and housework to be done. But I think these are the times that the Lord gives us to draw closer to Him. To hunger for more of Him. To pray about what we want. He says in His word that he grants us the desires of our hearts. I know He doesn't want me to be weary and discouraged, and so I will look to the Lord for hope. I found this verse today and think it will be my mantra until this weariness and discouragement passes.

...do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

Joshua 1:9

The other thing that I have to remember, too, is my blessings. I know I have it good! I've got an amazing husband that allows me to be home with the girls. I've got a great home and am very comfortable here. I've got supportive family and friends. I've never had to worry about not having the basic necessities - food, water, shelter, clothing. I've been so blessed by the Lord and I think that this ultimately is what I need to focus on. That the Lord is good and has provided an amazing life for me! He's supplied me with all I need. He's let me be surrounded by loads of family and friends that love me. I am so grateful for the life I have. So in this phase of being weary and discouraged I will count my blessings and keep my eyes on Him!